mundane life

2009-05-21T23:39:00.001+08:00

You Are Snow

You are peaceful and calm. You are able to enjoy each moment.

You have a pure, gentle spirit. People automatically trust you.

You have a playful, adventurous spirit. You still feel like a kid.

You are able to find the joy in any situation. You are blissful.

Are You Rain or Snow?

Your Snow Test Says You're Agreeable

You feel like something good will happen to you in the next few months.

You don't really like to work, unless work feels like play. You only are successful when you are doing what you love.

You are a cooperative, agreeable person. You enjoy the company of others, and you enjoy compromising for the good of the group.

Your biggest worry in life is your family. You stay up at night thinking about them.

When it comes time to relax, you have no problem letting go. You are already pretty relaxed as is!

The Snow Test

You Are Great With Money

You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely.

By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future.

And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on.

You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

Are You Good With Money?

21/5/2009

2009-05-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

tired.... had walk dog duties... haha.... :) and a flat to myself... my aunt and grandparents went to genting and left their dog in my care... :) sigh, have to find job!!! bored...

21/5/2009

2009-05-21T01:47:00.001+08:00

sigh, i feel bad... need to sleep, i promise i wont even bother to ask ppl to read... waste of their time cos i am not consistent

so so long

2009-02-23T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!!
hmm, most blogs are dead too right?
anyway, I am inspired...
go watch zeitgiest
at www.zeitgeistmovie.com

this sem is just crazy, an event just passed.
I got a new goal in life, since vet is now a thing of the past. after entering the Uni.
Weird huh? The dream job we dream of when we were young never seem to come true.
I decided that i have no talent in computing.

migrating to Canada is out too, after 2005, there is a Pan American Union, merging US, Canada and Mexico together. A no border Union. Like EU.
life is dealing me the blows.

No one is going to read this... most likely...

arguement

2008-10-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

sigh... tired of arguments. hate this life.
birthday is coming but no mood...
y i come to uni she has become more controlling than ever? or is it i want more freedom. as always i have no say. haha!! except for ranting here....
weee~~~~ how enjoyable.
****
blah, not getting calmed down.

finished my reports. worrying bout test. nagger

recess week

2008-09-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

recess week sucks... was sick the whole week.... have you see red phlegm? haha... i saw!!! but i am not going to die... the doc said there was infection at some glands near my eye... but i may have become stupid... cos my fever was at 39plus for the 1st 4 days... didn't do much work.... screwed.... need to mug!!!
i missed too outing... yesterday is the bcg outing.... today is the class outing... sigh... it is either fun or work... must work cos i didn't even do anything till now... stupid cough mixture... keep making me ko... nost drowsy med i ever took...

my updated timetable

2008-08-23T18:15:00.003+08:00

this is my newest timetable

MON
8.30- 10.30 AB106 TUT
10.30-11.30 CSC102 LECT
12.30-2.30 CSC102 LAB
2.30-4.00 HMF1 TUT

TUES
12.30-2.30 AA101 LECT
3.30-4.30 CSC101 LECT
4.30-5.30 CSC102 LECT

WED
2.30-4.00 HMF1 TUT
4.30-6.30 AB106 LECT

THURS
8.30-9.30 CSC101 TUT
9.30-10.30 CSC102 LECT
10.30-11.30 CSC101 LECT
12.30-2.30 AA101 TUT

FRI
9.30-10.30 CSC102 TUT
3.30-4.30 CSC101 LECT

CSC101: Intro to Computer Systems
CSC102: Java Programming
AA101: Accounting 1
AB106: Econs
HMF1: French 1

I drop my psycho... to french

i hate my life

2008-08-23T17:44:00.003+08:00

hmmm? pic? i dunno... not in the mood for pics anymore...
depress now... just read the stupid s16 blog... hate all the.... sigh... feeling uneasy...
not tt i can do anything bout it...
emo...
sigh... quarreled with mom yesterday... i dun understand y i cant take a break... y do i have to keep working harder to gain what i should be getting... y cant she pat me on the back and say good job.. rest... dun need to push yourself so hard... y is it always "rest so u can work harder and better later"... I JUST FEEL SO TIRED...
sch is super draining... worse than jc... everyone studies... i feel stress... cant catch up... cant breathe... everyday is so serious... cant make lame jokes.. cant talk bout random stuff... at home also cant... work work work... sometimes i think she just want me to overwork myself... hope tt i will break down soon like a robot running 24/7... even sleep... she say no sleep how to be fresh for studies... cant she just show some concern? emo thinking bout it... since young it was like tt... it was just me who is finding excuses for her... 'i will only love those who study hard' i had always remember tt... not 'i love you for who you are'. i had strived for tt for all my life... but i just cant reach her goal... everytime i seem like i am nearing it, it is being raised. i really cant take it anymore... these goals these expectation... maybe i should let go... either tt or i will kill myself soon... cant take this anymore... i did try... try very hard for her love... i have treasure all those little action tt may hint bout her love or concern, but it has been always whims... by her mood... does she really love me or just a exchange... i bring you up so u must listen to me and take care of me when i am old... n u must be grateful to what i have given you... yes, i am grateful, i am abide to what she says... n i love her... is it only a one sided thing?
sch is taking a toil on me... so stressful... most of the guys seem to know loads bout computing... my only advantage is econs... exams n test aeems so near... no one slacks... my only outlet is when my soul is at home... but there is so little time... when can i take a break? or is it only possible when i die? i am nearing my break down again... WHY DO HUMANS SEEK PROGRESS SO MUCH?

min to karissa timetable inquiry

2008-08-15T11:38:00.002+08:00

oh oh, i decided to add this to show you guys my timetable
MON
8.30-10.30:AB106 TUT
10.30-11.30:CSC102 LECT
12.30-2.30:CSC102 LAB
TUES
8.30-10.30:HP101 LECT
12.30-2.30:AA101 LECT
3.30-4.30:CSC101 LECT
4.30-5.30:CSC102 LECT
WED
4.30-6.30:AB106 LECT
THURS
8.30-9.30:CSC101 TUT
9.30-10.30:CSC102 LECT
10.30-11.30:CSC101 LECT
12.30-2.30:AA101 LECT
3.30-5.30:HP101 TUT
FRI
9.30-10.30:CSC102 TUT
3.30-4.30:CSC101 LECT

CSC101: Intro to computer systems
CSC102: Intro to java programming
AA101: Accounting 1
AB106: Principle of economics
HP101: Intro to psychology

for econs: I CANT BELIEVE I CANT BE EXEMPTED!!! I read through the notes... it is exactly the same as the H1 content!!!
for psychology: this is my UE for now... (UE=unrestricted elective) cos i am exempted from foundation math (csc103) i took this up so i can clear my AU (academic units)- for our course it is 182AU and we are suppose to take 23 AU next sem.... crazy... as for y i say it is "for now" it is cos the tutor told me it is a hard module to take.... :(

as you can see, my timetable is crazy for tues and thurs!!! fully packed...

new friends

2008-08-15T11:16:00.002+08:00

sch has started for 2 weeks... i think most of us have been trying very hard to find our ways around the sch. unless you are some super street smart person. tutorials have started for some... which means mugging time is about to start all over again. i got my tablet already!!! and with the help of my geeky frineds (it is a compliment!!! serious!), i am able to use the sch wireless... a very big inprovement from the past, dun you think?
as for tut, i had a accounting one and computer hardware one so far... for the computer thing, i was totally ?.? cos i didn't undersand all the terms they sprout out from their mouths. (they meaning the tutor, my friends, classmates,etc.) i think i am so goner....
friends: er, i am still trying to know everyone (at least the 31 in the same course as me). there is only 4 girls in my course.... -.- so we are seriously outnumbered....

to pj female friends: how's life? i hope those in nus manage to win the bids for their core modules... for others, i hope your time table is nice...
to pj guys (like you guys will ever check): hope your IQ isn't turning to 0.
to ppl who are retaking A's: really really good luck!! i can't imagine how stress you ppl are now.... but put in all your effort... make this the last time... i think you guys are really strong to want to undergo this all over again....

i know.... i know...

2008-08-08T11:25:00.002+08:00

yes yes.... i know my blog has been dead for a year.. n those who bothered to check this super dead blog-thanks!! er, well, now tt A 's are really over... we are kinda split up... guys are in army, girls are starting school... for those who wanna keep in contact my hp no still havent change... if u wanna chat through msn i think it is kinda hard to talk to me cos i sign in as offline. :) explains loads, doesn't it? HAHA!!
cos i am in ntu (business and computing) i started sch already. well, so far life in uni is still slack... i heard other uni starts later which is good for you guys. I know most of you guys will think i am hardly the computing type (which is true cos i can del part of the OS by accident) but so far i quite like computing. read through the notes and find it interesting... logical type... kinda like maths... as long as it is not chem i should be ok. haha...
boring boring me... oh, oh!! i am going to get a tablet. fujistu T5010. Ppl please tell me if it is good cos I am very new to all those stats thing.. please tell me before next wed otherwise i am going to be saddled with it even if it is bad.
Ummm, i know most of you guys will just treat it with sceptism if i say i am going to revive my blog ( cos i think i said it like 4 times already) so i am not going to say tt. well, if u are interested still please continue to check my blog. :) thanks!!
i am blogging now cos i am bored.... lessons start at 3.30 today.... going to rot in front of the com till then...
i realised i am a nerd. i think i actually like studying... :o the horror!!

pics...pics...n more pics...

2008-02-22T09:20:00.011+08:00

friends... + juniors

last few days in pj... classmates

ben just made my day

2008-02-21T10:42:00.001+08:00

ben just made my day!! so sweet... never realise till now... hope we will continue to make each others day!!

2008-02-18T12:09:00.002+08:00

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:

You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.

At Your Lowest:

You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.

In Love:

You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.

How You're Attractive:

Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.

Your Eternal Question:

"What else do I need in my life?"

What's Your Power Color?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.

You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.

You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...

But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

same results!! guess i am really too weird to do anything bout it... but i like being weird!! haha...

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.

Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

You Are Lisa Simpson

A total child prodigy and super genius, you have the mind for world domination.

But you prefer world peace, Buddhism, and tofu dogs.

You will be remembered for: all your academic accomplishments

Your life philosophy: "I refuse to believe that everybody refuses to believe the truth"

The Simpsons Personality Test

You Are 81% Grown Up, 19% Kid

Your emotional maturity is fully developed, and you have an excellent grasp on your emotions.

In fact, you are so emotionally mature - you should consider being a therapist!

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

had a weird dream

2008-02-18T11:11:00.002+08:00

dream of wei han offering me 150 to ask ppl to read his blog... so i came to check.. haha... weird... will u? wei han... give me $$.. ok... ok... joking... sore throat and cough!! and i am not getting better... stupid neighbour smokes all day... n the smokes drifts into my house.. sian.. going to have lung cancer at this rate... hope tt person moves out... want to complain!!! sicko smokes at 12am or 2am.. bloody hell... n i dun on air con... so i sometimes give up and close window... stupid ass... now practicing new policy... before i close window to block off his cigarette smoke i shout: stop smoking!! haha... dun think it is working though... saw some1 who may know jas tag!! yay!! after so long... she seem to vanish from earth or something.. went off to india n cut off contacts.. hey jas!! in case ur friend let u know my blog, i am guo min!! u promised to let me attend ur wedding so u better keep ur promise!!!

valentine....

2008-02-14T21:32:00.002+08:00

very very happy... learn guitar... sucks though.. but i manage to play a little... fingers hurting... want to learn to strum!!! hope everybody had fun today... whether you are single or attached... v. day is just another day to celebrate you breathing still... haha...

2008-02-11T10:11:00.000+08:00

What Your Pizza Reveals

You have a hearty appetite. You are likely to complain if a restaurant has small portions.

You are a very picky pizza eater. Not any pizza will do. You fit in best in the Northeast part of the US.

You like food that's traditional and well crafted. You aren't impressed with "gourmet" foods.

You are generous, outgoing, and considerate with your choices.

You are carefree and friendly. You should consider traveling to Hawaii.

The stereotype that best fits you is emo. You think you're special... and you kind of are.

What Does Your Pizza Say About You?

2008-02-11T09:43:00.000+08:00

You Are 32% Brutally Honest

Honesty is nice, but only when it's convenient. You rather be nice than honest.
You figure it's important to be honest about the big stuff, but little lies never hurt anyone!

How Brutally Honest Are You?

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility.
Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships.
Whoever you love should be your best friend.
And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question.

Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you

Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance.

You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are conservative, old fashioned, and a little stubborn. You are resistant to change.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

You Are Fairly Normal

You scored 60% normal on this quiz

Like most people you are normal in some ways...
But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too!

Why You Are Normal:

You prefer fiction to non fiction

You think fishnet stockings are trashy

You would rather be an astronaut than a movie star

You rather be screwed over than screw someone else over

You eat the frosting first

Why You Aren't Normal:

You prefer flat potato chips.

You would rather be tan than pale

You'd rather have cockroaches than rats in your home

You would not eat meat from a cloned animal

You are no longer with your first love

What's Normal About You... And What's Not?

You Act Like You Are 19 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.
You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.
You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

What Age Do You Act?

hey tt is my age!!thought i will be like 40 or something...

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

You Are a Chocolate Mocha and Orange Cheesecake

Enthusiastic and intense, there's so much you love in the world... it's hard to do it all.
You are good at getting things to mix - friends, flavors, hobbies. You're the master of fusion!

What Kind of Cheesecake Are You?

was oversea....

2008-02-11T09:14:00.000+08:00

hey hey... happy chinese new year... gained weight???? i sure did...went overseas so i didn't update till now... went indonesia... raining half the time over there. so we didn't go to loads of places... including the climbing of a live volcano... which i think is the highlight of the trip... sigh.... oh well... wanted to climb it...
to ppl who is planning to go there: please take extra care when eating, my grandaunt found a big worm in the hotel's restaurant veggie... oh, n please bring sunscreen lotion, both my mum and grandaunt came back red...

hmmm.. how come got a feeling of getting spied?

2008-01-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

easy... cos mom is hovering at the computer room door... no... this is not a joke... serious... dire need of job... dire need of job... dire need of job... dire need of job... dire need of job... dire need of job

bbbboooorrrrrreeeeeedddddddddd

2008-01-31T10:00:00.000+08:00

wad teat? sian.... like nothing nice... the resume i sent out till today also no response... i wanna work.... not cos bored cos i no money... mum dun give allowance, then stop paying my phoe bill so i really in dire need of work!!! plus i promise to save loads.... no job... i need a job....

pri sch friends

2008-01-30T11:29:00.000+08:00

totally bored without work.... no lar, was busy the last few days cos was finding work... joined facebook today, found my pri sch friends... way too cool!! nice to finally keep in contact.. missed them so much... afterall pri sch friends are the most pure!! but dunno where zhi han went to. he is one of my best friends... but at least i got to find ginny... in tt sense today i had a great find!! oh, got injured... minor injury but now got this patch of bruise at my thigh... totally freaked some1 out when i fell. oh, and i crushed some1 by when i fall... was funny in tt sense..

i promised

2008-01-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

back cos i promised to keep it alive... today was ok... bought new clothes!! for new year. but cos we going overseas only bought 1 outfit. skirt n tee from fox!! fox rocks!! well... n got shocking news.... some1 has clothes for me too... waa... embarrassed... cos i have nothing to give back...

pissed!! mega pissed!!

2008-01-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

y there are ppl like tt existing in the world.. really dun understand... is the no of bf they get something to be proud of? bloody idiot... if so go find someone who is as non-commited... dun find some1 who fully devoted himself to u n believe tt the relationship will last. u bloody asshole. despise u...

venting/ranting-try not to look!!

2008-01-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

waaa waaa waaa... go die man!! sucks!! HAHA so much for wad?!! ppl suffering n u just HAHAing! it was u who caused him pain... dun make it sound like u were the vitim u bloody liar.
dun ask who is it!! private stuff meant to be private.

ya ya... i know

2008-01-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

so long never update. only doing this cos of u. :) er... wad happened? dunno where i left off... did i mention A level over? hope i did... sigh... do any1 still visit my blog? sian... oh... er... i slacked for 1 month plus then got irritated by mum's nagging so got a 2week job.. going to end on tues!! yay!! hopefully tt is. cos they trying to get replacement... they did offer me the job but i rejected... the real pay is 1600 n working time is 8 to 4.45. at firminech. ppl interested just google it up.. er... lab job. chem background. but i think they got ppl ler.. too bad of u guys..eww... just dig something sticky out of my finger.. senior bloody liar.. say loads of free time. where got? most ppl i know is working.. oh ya, got tuition too. ppl!! those who have younger sibling please contact me if they need tuiton!! i teaching sec sch ppl in maths n science!! for upper sec i teach A,Emath n combined (chem/phy) only! wee.... thinking of getting relief teacher job soon... but who will want me????????? sian... seniors lied!!!
oh n i heard rumours tt Alevel results out in feb!! i dun want!! in pj if u dun get on stage to recieve results i think kinda no hope liao.... i think... my opinion... not fact... anyway go up stage will be embarrassed too cos they will flash ur L1R5... anyway, i dun think i will make it to the list anyway so who cares??? sigh, but will be lying if i say i dun hope for it to happen... me getting on stage i mean...

ffffffffffrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-11-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

revival... but somehow it just doesn't feel as nice as i expected.... it is just sian... maybe it is cos i am broke or maybe it is cos i haven't really start playing... but a least it is not stressful... only good point.. oh ya, i am going to revive my blog so peeps!! read it!!!
listen to my command or u shall die!!!
joking...

A levels A levels... i shall triumph n rule!!

2007-10-10T12:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm... was so long since last blog... k... i did study... shocking... considered it is me... anyway... i m motivated!! roar!! i shall do well!! hmm. mr eddie koh gave us a poem each last week... mine was named warrior call... hmmm... :)
k... read a few blogs... marcus, ben, gerald. marcus cos it is shocking that he revived his blog, ben cos he told me he updated... n gerald cos i want to know how he got on... happy tt he is enjoying his life n his friends... :) relieved... afterall it was me who hurt him... oh i was looking through ben's sis online shop... the shared 1... they got some nice earrings... bel, if u see this... go see the earrings!! they are nice i tell u!! rare compliment from me... cos i m not a girly person!!
is hardship made to crush us or to make us stronger when we stand up again? depends on how you think...
shall go back to mugging soon!

2007-09-10T16:06:00.003+08:00

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.

And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.

Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.

And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

sorry ben... seems like you are right. hmmm?... weird...

2007-09-10T16:04:00.001+08:00

2007-08-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

u know? haiz... i dont have the mood to study... just stoned whenever i see math qns... need some1 to push me n whack me on my head to get me going... :(
but then all the ppl are to focus on themselves to push me...n i dont wanna to bother all my friends... cos they also need to study... last lap of chionging... will i even survive? i really doubt so... been having terrible thoughts... wad if i cant squeeze myself into uni? n my emotions are going haywired... very touchy... little little stuff can set me off... getting pissed ,irritated, sad, hurt, etc,etc bout little little stuff... sad life we all lead now rite? i really dont understand the edu system... the noble goal wadd to educate- to gain knowledge, to inspire, to allow us to pursue our field of interest... now it just studying to pass exams get a cert to get a job... where is the passion of learning... where is the creativity... stupid system if u ask me...

arh!

2007-07-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

engine restarting is so slow... i cant do as much in the same time... u know the feelingthat u study so much tt u dont really feel anything? i have this feeling after mugging 3hrs in the library... just now i just done another hour... i shall go on to revision later... maybe i can clock another 2hrs? my life has turn into such a sad 1... my ct told me it is normal... you have no life till ur As are done... rite! great!.. haha...
i know y i hate marriage... it is so fake... ppl think that it is a state of permanence (permanent! is there such a word i m not sure).. but this is so not true... dont u think so? i mean hello... there is such a thing as divorce... n the rates are rising like hell...
another thing is that failed marraige runs in my family... i know there is no such thing as happily ever after... n i think ppl should snap out of such a thinking... ppl with this type of thinking usually are the ones that end up in divorce... cos their dreams sorta shatters n the world come tumbling down when they realise tt it is not so...
wee~~ i shall debate on another controversy topic next time... best way to spice up my dead dead blog!!

ha!

2007-07-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

great study programme... have been sorta slacking so far... started my motor today... like finally... jia you!! i can do it!! so ppl! lets work hard for 6 months and we will have 6 months of slacking time...

i love swimming

2007-06-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

i love swimming... but i only did 10 laps today... so sad.... i m going to let my blog die... cos i really need to study... my 5 months break approved so going to spend all my time studying...
STUDY!!
i might as well make my studying fun... by learning to love to study...
bb... study time for me ler...

2007-06-14T08:49:00.000+08:00

sagittarius:'they are alway ready n even anxious to shoulder responsibility"
yep... it applies, very weird... i think.... who likes responsbilty? i know i dont, but it is just a part n puzzle of life... i dont strink from it or avoid it but i dun really like it either!!

hurting n sick

2007-06-14T08:33:00.000+08:00

sick... totally sick... got cough n flu n my back continue to hurt... i think it is the chocs i ate yesterday combined with fried chicken wings... begged my mum to massage n she think massage is rolling me over with a 1.5litre 100plus bottle filled with water!!... it didnt help but it was very funny.. n i think i hurt my neck more in the process... she keep rolling like i m a piece of dough or something!!... then later i went to my moms bed to get a massage again... a proper one... n my bro decided tt it was a good time to pound on me... so the back got worse!!
my back hurts so much that:
1) i asked my mom to massage- she will then start pinching me
2) i ask bro to massage- he would most probably make me wheelchair bound not ease my pain
3) complain about the pain on blog!!- like that will help! but then again wad are blogs for!
4) self massage- it ws the only thing that helped
cough n flu getting worse!! ahh i maybe i will die before midyrs so i dun need to study!! haha... i m so going to stop kidding myself... i gotta go study... bb

i feel like a 80 year old...

2007-06-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

i feel very vey old... like not 17 but 71 or something... my whole body is aching... any tiny action hurts like hell... my whole back muscles hurt... I NEED A MASSAGE!!... feel like lying down... face into the pillow n ask my mum to massage... haiz... my mom says i can massage n demands my services whenever she wants but if i ask for it she would just say: haha... old-y...
i can massage ppl but cant self massage rite!! sigh... y is it that in the whole family i have to be the massager? my grandparents uncles aunts even cousins ask me to help them ease their aches n no 1 can help me with mine... so unfair... haha... just remembered something... last time in st marg, gen ask me to help her massage... she then proceeded to lie down face flat on two tables in the classroom...
at least some of my friends are helpful... shall take comfort in that..thank u guys for helping...today someone help me too... wanted to say since u massaging liao can do my whole back? but i too nice... n that person not very good at it so nvm... my back muscles hurt...
today i studied, gave myself a reward, went out to buy dinner n saw my pri sch friend... norman... i keep seeing him in westmall... does he live there or something? westmall addict? no offence!!

haizzz...

2007-06-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

study study study... i shall do nothing but studying for the rest of the hols n till exams are over... wasted a day today... not good... must study!!
mock test 2mr... math... not good cos i havent finish studying... this is worse that common test... wad the hell.. haiz. i will lock myself up after mock to study!!
DONT BOTHER ME!!

today was a good day!!!

2007-06-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

lol... lets c... today someone went broke... went suntec... n i didnt spent a cent... haha... ok i spend 5bucks on ezlink.... n return $$... but still.... find it damn weird to get treated... but i think i should get use to it soon... wad defines low cut? debated again... i love fox!!... ate more then a guy... funny... n i was very very tired... went home n slept for 3hrs... study 2mr!! wee~~

haiz...

2007-06-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

had family dinner today... sian... i didnt study much but iron lots of clothes... i iron all my clothes that i didnt iron in the past n it just add up to a mountain... took like 2 hrs or something.... so if i learnt anything today it will be how to iron stuff n tt i have lots of clothes n my wardrobe is bursting... lol...
family (it is those with aunts n grandparents) dinner today was one of the fastest... usually we will be late n eat very very slow... as in we start at 5plus n stop at 9plus n chat till 10... ya... something like tt... today was we start at 5.30 n end at 7... so fast man... we ate at long beach... n we did something we nv do before... usually when we eat we will definately not finish up the dishes... as in we will leave one or two pieces behind... but today we cleared it all... so cool... n damn weird!!... haiz... we are food wasters u see... n it is damn weird to see empty n clean dish plates n clean table at the end of everything...
oh... n on the way back i got very fascinated by the way my cousin sleep...her head goes all over the place... lean against window.. lean against the back go to the front... my mom say i sleep like tt too... then sometimes on the bus or mrt i end up leaning on the people beside me r total strangers!! haha... hope i dun do tt now... i dun really sleep on bus or mrt now cos of tt...

m i a feminist?

2007-06-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

wad defines feminist?
r guys suppose to carry women handbags? or help to carry/ or help to carry girls bags which are not very heavy?
r guys suppose to treat girls?
wad u guys think?

wee...

2007-06-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

i finally touched the new com... gettting use to ultra big screen... cos laptop screen small... now the monitor damn big... yesterday a friendship ended... i dun feel anything anymore so i take it as a good thing.. the keyboard also need to get use to... typing so slow... sian... yesterday we had bowling outing so i officially didnt study for 3 days ler... including today... wanted to do math but end up in IMM shopping... bought new fox stuff very happy... i love fox stuff... it is so nice... mom complain i get two tee of same design... but it was in diff colour!!. she thinks i m weird... told her some stuff then she keep doing weird stuff... like stroking my arm... n she say i m weird?!!... like excuse me?!!
love my mom... too cute... hehe... she will get pissed if she see this.. lol..
kk... anyway... my phone is spoilt by my bro... he flipped it then the screen went black... i think he has this knack of spoiling my stuff... sigh... so i dun have a phone now... if u guys wanna contact me just tag my blog... or catch me on msn... which is quite hard...
must start studying!! will start 2mr!!

wooh...i m back

2007-06-07T16:12:00.000+08:00

hello... back after so long... divorcing pearly n staying single!! best solution... wee... anyway not tt i dun want to blog... but my bro manage to spoilt both his com n my laptop... no idea how he done tt but he did... so my home is computer-less till yesterday... now only have 1 com n he is hoggling it... soo... i m blogging somewhere out there... lol.. ahhh.... bowling competition n pre u sem ended... now studying for mid years... how awful..
bowling competition ended in a sucky way... with 6 bad team games... the 1st day for team we were bowlling beside some gals who were drifting like hell in-swinging like hell... n the we all got affected... we started inswinging... crap rite.. haha.. anyway the 2nd day for team, i was sick n tired (cos of pre u sem) n bowlled like crap... gave up on the 2nd round... we dropped from 4th to dunno where... haiz.. then yu min cried n affected me then i cried... sad... n something also happen in safra which also affected our mood... haiz... bowling outing 2mr... maybe we can put a nice end to all this sad bowling events!! 2mr we shall rock...
pre u sem... was tiring n fun... love my sg... i promised to post pics n i will... even though i was away for bowlling competition sometimes, i still manage to bond with them!! thanks to truth n truth... shall play it some time again when we have bowling outing... wee...
i realise something while juggling bowling competition n pre u sem: sometimes it is better to chose 1 thing to focus your energy on, so you wouldnt burn out n dont do well for both things...
mid years;i study like crap now... total nerd or something... n i realise i forgot almost all the j1 topic!! n the new topic like quantum physic n the poisson n normal distribution? cos of the lectures i missed... i have no idea wad are those about... so i seriously need to mug hard...
anything else tt i missed? oh ya... natra b'dae party... advice for ppl who are having b'dae party: dun dun ever hold it in parks where ppl need to climb to reach!! but the kicking of the great door was fun... or at least seeing u ppl kick it was!!

2007-05-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

i know i promised. to blog about responsibility of blogging. will do it. anyway 2mr is the big day. read blogs. felt hurt, i know i can rant about ppl on my blog but i never ever put names down. i think it is very bad, to talk bad about ppl on blogs. 1stly it would not be truthful cos your or my stand would be bias. paint bad pic about you? never, i would not talk about wad you did whether good or bad to any1. i think you deserve that. i m sorry that i do not want the last talk with you. n i do not hate you. just too tired. i m sorry that i hurt you. but i rather stop all this once n for all. i hope to that you would not try to hurt us too.
doubles was ok. average is 131.67 so it means i didnt do as well. but i m happy cos i didnt get really affected by all that has happen.

haiz

2007-05-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

been saying haiz a lot. it has to stop. i want to be happy. dun want to fight back. just want all this to end. i dun like conflicts. i hate conflicts. i dun want to take sides. i dun want to play sides. ya, i cant survive without friends. that is right. pathetic? i really dun think so. friends are important. to me, i have put in all my effort. so i m going to leave it as that.
i just hope that you would just give a truthful view of things.. i wouldnt say anything. it is partially my fault. i agree. but if you are not portraying the truth, i guess i would step in.. ppl are bound to ask. i would not comment on anything. my views/opinion would be bias, so i wouldnt say.

i dun know

2007-05-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

i m glad i took up courage today. very proud of myself. i dun really care anymore. just concern for kai chi n micheal n natra. the rest, i cant be bothered. i think st marg has trained me well to deal with stuff like this.. it is like i m just viewing this thing as a 3rd person view. i think i m kinda heartless. i take comfort that i have put in my best in the friendship n even though it has not worked out, i dun regret. i m glad that things have worked out well enough. emotionally draining, but at least i got it done..
to kai chi: i m so sorry!! was too stressed that day, lets talk 2mr. dun be to stressed. if you have put in all your effort then just dun care k? i know how you are feeling. i was like that last time. just know that you have put in all your effort n if you are not appreciated then just dun care about the situation. you will feel more relaxed.
to micheal: calm down. dun get all agitated. if you are piss i take it that it is quite bad. to me you are those who really cant be bothered type. so relax!!

2007-05-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

argh!!! i mean, stop giving us problems... we are nearing As.. we are busy enough. i have stuff to do. i dun have 48 hrs a day. i dun have time to care about your problems. but i still care cos you are my friend. but i think you are just giving yourself n us problems. seriously, do you know you hurt me so many times by giving hurtful comments n that giving me bullshit statement? n then you come around the next day being all friendly n nice. n stop giving double meaning statement, it is sick! i feel damn frustrated.. you should know that you will lose your friends if you carry on doing that. hell... i put up with it cos i want a peaceful life (as in no emotional havoc..) n you are a good friend.. but u seem determine to create havoc.. seriously, i think i put up enough, if you continue to do wad you are doing now i will just will be so turn off n avoid you cos i seriously do not need the bullshit you are giving me...
i mean i have been trying very very hard to understand how you view things n standing at your point of view... i know all people have faults n flaws. but have you ever stand on our point of view? huh? wad do you have to say?.. i try to bear with it cos i know tt if all your friends were to leave you u will just break, crack, something. but i dun think you appreciate us.. i mean who goes around testing friends by being mean n hurtful. who goes around giving double meaning statement? it is sadistic! i can say i tried n tried n tried come up with excuses for your behavior to console myself like you are just being insecure n stuff... but you are seriously not helping. bloody idiot!!

good game. good start. hurt confuse angry fedup

2007-05-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

bowling competition: 6 games individual. saw lots of fury... everytime i change lane there is 1... anyway... bowled ok... not hitting my aim yet... but better than trainings... i do better in competitions... dunno why... average is 132.++... dunno... nv remember...
SPA skill A 2mr.. will do well, must do well... got my my physic test.. hell, must start studying seriously.. i will turn into a no-life-study-geek-freak as audrey so nicely phrase it. lol.. losing my voice... argh!! not good..
the spinner form yj really really can spin... his ball damn nice... his name is benjamin i think, y tt name is so common?
hurt, confused, fedup: i feel sick... when i think about that problem. didnt think about it till we were eating in mac... when i talked to natra. i felt so sick tt i wanted to vomit the stuff i ate.. i dunno wad i am suppose to think, to feel... sian... dunno how to deal with it. n tt person still dun want to tell me. so... there is nothing i can do.. need to come up with a solution soon... can see that tt person is trying to avoid the inevitable talk. seriously, if i can, i also want to avoid. but alas, tt is not the way of life...

shit wrote in the wrong blog.

2007-05-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

omg!! i almost didnt realise i wrote in the wrong blog.. almost wrote all this on the sg blog. lucky i found out in time.
k. back to the stuff i wanted to blog about.another new that struck me. i m not going to blog about wad it is. i promised.
shit shit shit shit this is not suppose to happen to me was my 1st reaction. then i felt hurt, n angry, n mentally sick. so i ran away... n then i felt physically sick... wanted to puke on the track. i still feel like puking every time i think of it. i m glad that i dealt with it quite well... as long as he didnt lie to me it is ok. i will just act like nothing is wrong. maybe i will forget about it. i m very forgetful anyway. hell... who m i kidding? that was too sudden too abrupt.
farid if you dun understand it is ok... i just wanna rant..
feeling kinda bad. i will try to come to a decision soon. dun want to waste his time. very afraid that i ask him to wait till A end then reject him. i will feel guilty for the rest of my life. so i will come to a decision soon...
argh... i cant concentrate in class... but i will try to concentrate. I WANT TO DO WELL IN MY A LEVELS!!! maybe if i can focus when i study i will forget all the thing i very much want to forget... lets see how things go.

ok... big shockin news!

2007-05-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

ok... heard 2 shocking news yesterday. one i blogged about. the other i had to process the whole nite to get it digested. but i think some of you had heard. or read. or something. have till wait till my As is over... i dun want to lose concentration now. so going slowly. natra knows. brenda knows. i will tell all my close friends about it. dun worry... i will tell you ppl, unless you are not my close friend. (muahahaha- dun say i m mean.) i think it is my right!!
to gerald: please go edit you blog. it doesnt portray facts. n for your info, i m still your friend!!!.
kz... anyway, the skill A mock test was like damn hard... couldnt remember most of the stuff i am suppose to write. haiz. i have let mdm goh down.. will mug today n 2mr for skill A... competition on tues!! argh!! ok... focus! so tues would most probably be too tired to do anything.... n wed is the skill A test already.

wooh.... tired

2007-05-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

not sleeping much for this two days...
fri: slept at 1+, woke up 5+
sat: slept at 12+, woke up 5
that to me is crazy, i m those that needs 9hrs of sleep, not 8, is 9
sianz.... so i will try to sleep as much as i can today, going to sleep at 11... not going to leave my bed till 9!!! my aim!
fri: got last bowling training with juniors, shouted a lot to get group high, the n during cheers, i also shout... n then i was kinda fierce with the rest, damn sad, last meeting liao then leave bad impression.... had dinner gathering.... ate pizza... i ate 3 slices... wanted to get the fourth, but all the guy(male/female) ate only 2 or less.... so i felt too embarrassed to eat the fourth slice... they say i m a hungry ghost... cos i was like really hungry... bowlers eat so slow... i was on my mid 3rd slice and they were just starting their 2nd.
sat(today): meet the participants, i think i didnt give a very good impression... cos i got sore throat n very tired... not high enough.... but i think my sg ppl very enthu... n bond easily... very happy.... love them... i think my fellow slos did well... they say i lame... i was like 'er... wad bout pam n ben?'... i think i m getting influenced by them...
got shocking news today... haiz... sian... dun understand wad he thinks, seriously... say he is not going to say then say.... totally caught me off guard...

i m going to be evil

2007-05-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

i decided. i am not going to be trampled anymore. i am going to use my st marg attitude to deal with all this nonsense in my life. i dun wanna break down just becos ppl trample my dignity below their feet... prepare for changes. dont say i didnt warn you.
my st marg attitude:
1)if you dun like my attitude too bad
2)if you give me crap i will double the dosage and throw it back at you (i m skill in this)
3)i will continue to be nice to friends but may be a little bit sarcastic

now these ppl( kai chi, karissa n ppl who cant stand vulgarities ) please dun continue to read... some of the stuff may hurt you ears/ eyes
1) to you know who, please draw a clear line between work n personal life. i dont particularly like talking to you either. so dun act like you cant be bothered. keep to your duties. you are suppose to inform us about stuff... stop giving me attitude. who u think you are anyway? just because i try to bear with it doesnt mean that you can dont do your duty well... informing me is also part of you duty.. when i m talking to you as a cm i expect you to give me the respect. i think i have done enough to earn it. if it is personal, you can give me as much attitude as you like. (i cant be bother to talk to you on a personal basis anyway) if you give me s*** i will give you s***.
2) i detest the coach actions. gerald ask me to not say to much so tt is it. period.
3) i need my personal space, cross it you can die. if i wan to say personal stuff i will say. if i dont i wouldnt. if you force me you can say bb to our friendship.
tt is all.

my mom saw my blog... wee~~~ warning to gerald, love my juniors

2007-05-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

warning to gerald: my mom wants to vist your blog... she saw mine... horrors* blogs aren't meant for parents to see... lol....anyway, back to the topic i want to talk about... sorry for the breaking down part... i m ok now... blogging helps...
WAD TO DO WHEN YOU ARE SAD (from the one who is very experienced -me :) )
1) cry- to destress, to release the tension (recommend to not cry in place where there are many ppl)
2) call best friend/ message to say you want to meet- you would be happy to know that there are friends willing to help you (recommend you to can best friend cos they are the least likely to reject you) ( whether you eventually meet or not is another thing)
3) take a shower in cold water (to relax and calm you down)
4) crap to ppl about your probs (recommend you to crap to ppl who dun really know wad is going on)
5) sleep! best way to forget prob (recommend you dun drink alcohol, cos you will feel more miserable the next day due to hangover and if you are ppl like me- you are those who wont get drunk even after drinking 1 whole bottle of red wine)

k, other stuff...need to rush for homework n start for mid years. i will become loner again... dun feel like fighting for friends anymore... too tired... n cant be bothered.. 2mr will feel lonely cos the s18 ppl got spa... that mean they are not coming for bowling... argh... bout the boycotting act... i think i m a total failure at dao-ing ppl.... cos i feel guilty not replying to them when they talk to me... ben said that i totally suck at the act... he said that since i was listening to music i should just act like i cant hear wad the person say... to karissa: hope you have done well for choir... n still got wad... dunno... that is all for to-day...

to sad... cant stop

2007-05-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

still crying during gp which is now... to depressed... kai chi said that i m bothered bout minor events cos there is too many thing in my life... dun think so... cos to me, my friends is very important... the ppl around me are important...

waa~~ cry

2007-05-08T10:13:00.000+08:00

sad... i will carry on... will take the attitude... will try to be nicer... will try to not think about the s*** they give me... cos i think i am partly responsible... will try to treat it as they are just teasing me... will try to fulfill my duties as the cm... will try to bear it all... cos it is the only way to have peace in the class.... in my life... will try.... will persevere... sorry that i freak you out farid ben jason kai chi... sooo sorry!.... too stressed...
i dunno why they keep teasing me... gerald say i m bully-able... lol... nice.... so i will have to take the s***... i dunno why they think i can and will accept the attitude they give me.... but i will... that is me i guess...

wee`` gold fluck test

2007-05-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

got gold for napha... wee~~ so cool... ben's tip on sit n reach really work... i can tell you from experience... if the track is wet dun do shuttle run... cos the 1st time i did my napha with bowlers the track was wet... ran slow... but today when i redo shuttle run( the track was dry) i ran 0.8s faster... wee~~... flunk 2 test today.. econs and phy... the phy qns2 was hard n the last qns was too good to be true... ben got teased today... by his friends... he got pissed and went to do pull up with his blistered hands... i dunno wad to say... i can understand tt though... when i am very angry or sad... i like to run or swim... work off all the emotions... very tired today... cos i slept at 12 yesterday n woke up at 2am today... stared at the ceiling for 4 hours willing myself to go to sleep... didnt work though... left 41 days to mid year and i have not started studying... will start today...

blog... it is blog not anything else

2007-05-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

got 2 test havent study yet... great... anyway... kinda sad today... woke up at the wrong side of bed... it is ben's blog not bog... sorry... but i think you ppl got it rite...
i miss him( not telling u who)... that is bad... anyway... read emails send... feel even sadder... cos i know i have not put in all my efforts... shall go with the right mindset... need counselling (how to spell?) session with yao dong again...

stupid me

2007-05-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

spam my own blog... how clever is that? edit all my post... ppl it is replug not repluck... i spelled it according to how people pronounced it... so i blame it on singlish... anyway, today was given a bad news, after all the efforts i took to bond wiht my sg slo, they tell me that i m changing sg... great or wad? stupid person, y quit, want to quit quit earlier lar.. recee NTU today... think i will lose my way... haiz... got 2 test on mon... have not started studying it yet... great...slept at like 1 yesterday (i usually cant last over 11)... damn tired today... so when i reach home i just went to sleep and slept for 2 hrs...
please go to ben's bog to sign the petition ppl... i think that too many ppl are still not aware of wad is happening in the seas... even though we can really see the effects (cos it is underwater n not land), does not mean that overfishing and unnecessary killing of underwater creatures are not happening... there is one national geography mag that focus on the over fishing... i think it is a good job... at least it raises awareness... trying not to eat fish now... dun really like eating them anyway... some1 tell me 1 person cannot make much of a diff... but i think that if there are lots of 1 person, there will be a impact dun u think so?

bowling sucks

2007-05-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

bowled one of my worse game ever today... got a 2 digit no score.. how pathetic... anyway... after training i bowled another game but i didnt finish cos my mum came to fetch me... it was 104 at the 7th frame... and i spared the 8 frame... such a pity... jason got the best split ever... it was 7,4,9,10 split... never ever saw it before... lol... but of course he did his best and hit pins 9,10... by squeezing his ball rite in the middle of that 2 pins... maybe i just dun bowl well with the coaches around... haiz... that is so bad...
the bowling skirt is so damn short... and it keep coming up my waist... stupid skirt cant stay at my hips.... hell...
oh ya, meet someone i know during training... it when like this:
was being teased by hsing yen n ting ting, then some where at the back called "guo min!"
turned around and saw this guy bowler from some sch looking at me...
the dunno who said:"hello!remember me?"
i gave blank look.
dunno who said:"i am your pri sch friend!"
i said:"i got many pri sch friend."
his female friend laughed...
the supposedly pri sch friend who is embrassed said: i am norman remember?"
i gave blank look(his friend laughed again, n he grew pink), n then i remember the impression of know tt guy...
i freaked out, said" hi!" n turned crashing into my friends.... nice rite... then i grew pink and then went to bowl...
nice meeting rite... lol... i like my pri sch friends quite a lot, but i dun remember much bout norman... he is those hi bye friend... amazed by the fact that he can still remember how i look n my name... n can associate my pri sch look to how i look now... i think he is damn pro... but his bowling damn lan...i can beat him easily... muahhahahaha....

shoe ruined

2007-05-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

my shoe is ruined... bowling shoe...due to the rain... argh... bought slider... n i can slide to dunno where... damn cool... but the thing is i will lose balance easily...
boycotting act in progress... lol... i dun think the person can sense, so not much use... blogging in sch...
felt sad yesterday... dunno why... but anyway.. saw the boys taking napha... really cool... cos there was so many people running at the same time... like singapore great walk....
dont want to have a crush again.... so going to be real self consious...
as for the totally evil chem test that i didnt study for... i manage to pass it... cos there was the ionic equilibrium.... the whole part bout organic? i got only 2 marks... sad case rite... mdm goh say only 8 ppl passed out of the 06s22 and 06s16... so i m quite happy ler... must buck up for organic chem... mdm goh said that if we dun know organic chem then can dun take A's... think that is directed to me... so will jia you... dun wanna let our dear mdm goh down...
dun like the problems that i have in my cliques.... but cant really be bothered bout them... if they irritated me more... i will just ask them to go die... or hell... or both...

firefox

2007-05-02T19:43:00.000+08:00

wee... bowled at yishun... really fun... lagging behind work but cant be bothered... had dreams yester-day.... dun really remember... but got ben 1... changed to firefox.... think is better then internet explorer... going to fail test... dun ask for tips... cos i would give wrong ones or something... AJC has same bowling tee as us!!! *horrors**shivers*... lucky we are not competing together...bowled quite bad... not up to standard type... me that is... hell.... give advice but cant follow the advice i give... hell... n got hte bowlling skirt... damn short... but wouldnt expose anything cos it has tights underneath... is that how u spell?
saw a familiar looking guy at the bowling alley but cant remember who he is at that moment... gerald and ben keep saying it is the common face... it is not... cos i remember who he is... on the mrt... he is a YJC bowler... who bowled besides us during the tpjc invitational... spinner... bowl like our senior... cant remember the name ( the senior's name tt is)... even though i am really bad with names i am very good at remembering faces... dun play play...
lets see... wad else... oh ya... my mom's office caught fire... lol... but she still have to go work... cos she is accountant... so must claim insurance n stuff.... sian rite... no place to work still must work...
still got... still got... i cant remember... will write when i do remember...

com ok

2007-05-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

muahhahaha.... fixed my com... by myself... hahaha... cool man... maybe i m not as bad in IT as i thought i was.... labour day training was fun... bonded with one of my fellow slo.... the one who is in the sg as me... sg: seminar group... yeah... became quite good friend with Zhong Ri... withdrawn ppl rocks... worried for the chem test cos i have not study it yet... argh.... had a long chat with brenda... she seem very high... said that she nv diao ppl in her class anymore... wah.... good for her.... want her in my class... will be very fun... she said my eng de-prove... hell... will try to speack better eng... waahhhh.... die...
cant be bothered bout my clique anymore... starting from next week i shall be a nerd and sit right in front and dun care bout them... pam n her corner seat...
hazel liew wan me to retake all the stations that i didnt get 5 pts for... she think i god arh? anyway dun feel like doing... but i promised her to do the stations i got 2 pts for... so 2mr i will redo that 2 and just try to worm my way out of the rest...
sianz.... lagging behind work again.... shall go study...

the weekend

2007-04-30T11:39:00.000+08:00

the com still not repaired yet... anyway... have you met any people with no driving ettiquite/... i did.... hell... i think tt person lack manners... n isnt a gentleman.... my mum was furious.... cos we were waiting at the carpark for like half an hour and there was a car coming out finally... then there is another guy who just came in into the carpark and took the slot... my mum,being so daring n angry, horn tt car and tt driver glared at her.... insisting tt he saw it first... hell... my mum was so pissed the whole day...
slo training 2mr.... labour day to do labour... wadever man.... that is lamer then ben...
sorry kai chi, i promise not to do that anymore.... if that makes you embrassed...
meeting brenda today... happy.... really very happy....can crap.... she is the only friend i can crap with bout anything... lol
dont like small dogs.... cos i feel that i would break their bones if i pat them to hard... love big dogs which i can hug... like duke... miss him...

rain

2007-04-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

i love the rain.... dunno why... but i just do... it calms me down... make me think... the smell of the wet damp air is so nice... and it makes the night air cooler... sleep better... oh, and after the rain, the smell of grass is so nice too...
anywayz, was in a depress mood today... felt hurt by some comments... so sad... the sky is going to cry again... rain that is... feel down... n angry at that person... want to vent it off- the anger, the hurt, the feeling that i am all alone... cant stand tt person anymore... want to tell her to go away... but my heart tells ne not to cos it will be too hurtful... argh... i hope that person sense it...
did the personality test today, my teacher seem shock that i am an extrovert... actually i think i am neither here nor there... cos i got both sides...

happy, gay ,joyful

2007-04-26T15:13:00.000+08:00

very happy... was grinning to myself like some wacko... pam thinks i going goon goons as usual... or at least bel think so... lol... that cos i m really happy... gay... joyful... the "gay" is happy... not the sexual orientation thingy... grinned throughout phy and gp... so grinned for 3hrs... n i was happy that i volunteer myself for gp... k... anyway... my fav junior rocks... haha..
oh ya.. today was totally drenched.... dhoes n socks wet... aired it during chem lecture... lots of ppl did tt too.... wonder y we didnt die from the smell.... lol... the we had gp n phy which took 3 hrs... half of our class aired our sock n shoes... dunno y pam didnt... i pity the sc... shee kwang came into the lecture hall with wet pant n shoes that are filled with water... lol... but i still like the rain....

yester-day was good...

2007-04-26T09:43:00.000+08:00

yester-day, bowlled with new ball... 1st round sucks... 2nd game was ok... the first half of the 3rd game as great... only got half cos time was up before i could finish... can control better... cos the ball was heavy... 13~ pound... cool rite... discussed bout favouritism (is that how you spell?)... anyway, my fav bowling junior is ben... read ben blog... feel happy... lol...
had lots of weird dream last night... joanna was a teacher... karissa n me did some stuff we are not suppose to do... n karissa suggested to run to the boys toliet to avoid getting caught... boys toliet cos joanna wouldnt go in... funny... oh well...
blogging in sch cos my bro spoilt my com... hate him... argh...

n i got self control

2007-04-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

oh... an achievement... got self restraint... nv hit juniors tt hard... cos i dun wanna feel guilty... n i m going to chevrons early to bowl... get use to the new ball...

moms reading my blog

2007-04-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

arghhh.... my mom say that she is going to read my blog... horrors... shall i go del all my entries?... hell... i dun wan... anyway... when gym... shocking or wad?... trained... got my ball... y is there so many scratches?... more than when i pass them my ball... great... resurface ball needed... hell... apparently i like to use that word hell... lol...

more bout my sort of friend

2007-04-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

cos i didnt have much time to blog yesterday, i shall elaborate wad i left out... er... regconise him cos of my gossiping aunts... as usual... i didnt notice him cos he changed lots... the usual thing, taller, more strong built and more tan... so i didnt really notice him... oh... n lucky, i didnt bump into my ex... i dun think he even went... so lucky me...
today... mr chan asked my why i didnt hand in AQ... it was due last week... i m seriously lagging behind sch work... will be mugging in the library for the week to catch up... hit ben really hard for freaking me out... i think he deserve it... to be hit tt is... but i think i hit him too hard... so... sorry!...

appreciation dinner

2007-04-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

er... went for a appreciation dinner... for the ppl living in hillview gardens... you know the mp n grc dinner type of thing... ya it is like tt... saw my friend... er... my sort of friend... i dunno... he was in the same tuition class as me last time... we always quarrelled... cos his best friend was my ex... anyway, he saw me n we sort of recognise each other... so it was kind of weird... n i dread meeting my ex.. cos unfortuately, we all live at the same area... so... ya... i think tt is all

2007-04-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

arghhh.... need to rewrite the whole thing again... the stupid internet connection got some prob... haiz, sianz... summary... was tired... woke up late... walked from bpp to sch dragging the troley bag along... reach just in time and sweating like hell.... sam's b'dae... took pics... will post it soon...
i think the sch is bent on ruining students weekend... meeting at 8.30... for goodness sake.. i need weekend to sleep and recharge... to counteract the lack of sleep during weekdays... agrhh... tt is y i am so tired for this week... cos of the weekend camp last week... going to bathe and just faint onto my bed..
to ben: hope you finally figured out how to read my blog... take care and dont strain the muscles... you need it to bowl...

2007-04-19T21:16:00.000+08:00

found out my friend blog... er... kind-of-a-friend blog... glad tt there was closure of the friendship thing... good... another stupid thing coming.... i dun understand... y i always get into this type of stuff... :( i am always playing a bad guy... in sec got ys... now just ended 1 prob and another come...

jason suggested that i should tell her to f*** off... haha... great suggestion... lol... i told kai chi how i feel n wad the situation is like.... this is like wad i said...
every1 has a bubble... it is called personal space.. her bubble (i think) consist of this single thought tt she is every1 good friend n have access to every1 secrets... she apparently think tt she has access to all the bubbles of her friends... i said:" kai chi, she wants to fuse my bubble with hers... and if she dares to come any closer i would very much like to poke her bubble..."
kai chi found it funny.... great... apparently my example was weird... but i still like to thank her...
thank you kai chi for listening to me and helping me...

k... thumb... still hurt... the swelling went down... good... the whole thumb was numb today... until i accidently wack it against my file... so there was a split second where i could see stars... and this pain that shot up... n there is this constant trodding now... great...

the sch fire drill was kinda funny... cos we were having lecture when the fire alarm came on... every1 was super calm... n STROLLED our way out.. the teacher outside the GO wanted to instill panick by asking us to hurry... but it fail... cos even though we did pick up our pace, we were just trying to humour the teacher...

the bowling ball... i dun know wad is wrong with the ppl... they need to take up like 2 weeks to replug my ball... i m going down 2mr to get it... if it is still not done, i would kill them... ok, sue them is the most i would go...

mum commented that i lose weight... lol... she got freaked out when she could feel my bone at the arms.. cos usually even though i am not fat, there are always muscles there...she say maybe i should see a doc cos i lost like 5kg in 3 weeks... and there is alway the skirt getting longer sign.. u know when the girls grow fat, our skirts go higher up to the waist... then when we slim down the skirts loosen and become longer... so i look like a nerd now... ha. the losing weight thing is one of the effects of mild depression i got... so since i m ok now, i should be back to my usual weight in no time..

sports day a bore n i hurt my thumb

2007-04-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

sports day was real sucky... boron house was last... hell... but i cant be bothered... i didnt sit at the grand stand but when over to the canteen... spent the time with gerald, ben, jason and jie ying... ben apparently got some emo songs for me to hear... real nice too bad it is rock... i dun really like them.. went half deaf at the end of the day... cos i increased the volume to 24... so tt i can hear the lyrics clearly... haha... so if you talk to me and i dun reply, you should know the reason...
injured my thumb...the right hand one... now messaging is real hard for me... cos the thumb hurts whenever pressure is applied... gerald who was looking at how bad the thumb apparently have no common sense at all... he pressed on the part where it hurt most and manage to reduce me to tears... moral of the story: if you are injured DO NOT let gerald tend to you...lol...

open and conservative

2007-04-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

open and conservative? which type are you? i think i am mostly conservative... it doesnt matter which type are you... tt is not wad i wan to talk about...
scene 1: a girl told me she french her sis to piss her sis bf off. n know some er... (stuff tt mostly ppl dun feel comfortable talking bout...)... i think it went to the R21 stuff... the talk was conducted on the bus and while walking... anyway... tt is not important... the important think is tt she said it with such pride... tt she is open... like it is something proud about being "open"...
i not saying this cos i am against ppl who are open... it is only a different thinking... i just dun understand why they wanna show off that they are open?.. dun understand at all... like being open you belong to some higher-class thing... dun know y they even think so...
another thing is tt ppl who are conservative think tt they are being backward... i can tell you it is not like tt.... ppl who are conservative should also take pride in their opinion n thinking... there is nothing wrong bout being conservative... tt is wad i think... i mean, it is not like you dun know such stuff... but you just dun feel comfortable talking bout such stuff in public with ppl you are not even close to...
it is just a difference in upbringing... tt is wad i think.

wooh~ i am back... apparently still got many ppl who read my blog

2007-04-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

yeah! i am back... had fun during the camp... missed karissa choir concert... heard tt the whole clique went... micheal said something mean to me today and said it is to get back at me for some stuff that i m suppose to do on sat/ somthing i did on sat... but i cant remember wad... so hell... who cares...
the camp was real good... put me back on my feet... so m not depressed anymore... see

Your Depression Level: 8%

You aren't depressed, and you probably already knew that.
Like everyone else, you have ups and downs.
But unlike most people, you've mastered keeping your mood stable.

Are You Depressed?

yeah! good... yang xi, thanks! for showing care n concern for me...even like we dun really have time to talk, u still found out tt i was abit down... thanks for the encouragement... kai chi too... thanks for showing tt you care!... feel tt i m important... to my friends...
k... camp... know lots of ppl... n some who are more enthu then me... so ya... i am not the weirdest... haha... the scap ppl was real enthu... namely nat, andy, qiao er n janice... lol... anyway, hope they will get lots of vote n get into sc/house exco...
lets see... tt is all for today... i think... will leave other stuff for other days... too much to write...
oh.... realise something... i totally forgot to take pics during camp... ARGH! cant show you guys how much fun i had... oh well...
n... sorry... i know i said some real mean stuff... but tt was to vent of the fustration i have... sorry!

bored.

2007-04-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

yes... i know... i said i wouldnt be blogging... bored... i dun know why i m reduce to this... sad life... i love st margs.! just hate pj... hate it like hell... hate the some friends i make - cos i cant connect... they are seriously not my type of friends. hate my class- they are all so.... wadever...
hate hate hate them all... go die every1! go hell!

anyway, sch is pushed back by an hour 2mr... i dun understand y they dont let us go sch later... dun think bowling training is pushed back though... crap... so that means i must go yishun n then to chevrons in like 2hrs time?!!... great... taxi, i guess...

ppl read today's straits time - the digital life... australian reseachers found out that powerpoint presentation is not does not help students... great... so the teachers have been using the wrong teaching system... this is cos we can absorb info better in either verbal or written form.... not both at the same time... so if powerpoint is used, our brain will have overload of info... harder to process... n the jc system is- lecturer talk with slides n we are suppose to write down notes... so effectively, we are doing ourselves a disfavor... great or wad...

the pay rise of the ppl in civil servants and the minister... i dun understand wad is the great debate about... maybe it is cos ppl are unhappy that a greater amount of tax is going into the ministers pocket n not to improving of our welfare... but y dont think of it this way, we are paying them like how we pay for service in hotels n stuff... so i think it is resonable if the ministers n civil servants recieve a pay tt is similar to those in the private sector.. yes, tag! lets discuss this...

not bloging for some time

2007-04-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

this is to ppl who read my blog regular... doubt there is any... since my blog is all bout depression...*sadist laugh*... anywayz, back to the main point... i dont think i will be blogging much for this week... cos i m going to be quite busy...
wed: take ball from safra yishun... then bowling training
fri: bowling training... then slo camp
sat: slo camp
sun: slo camp end at bout 1... most probably go home, take a bath n sleep to the next day

(tues and thurs: rush h/w cos i most probably will not be doing them during weekend)

so ya... will be busy... oh if you see that i still blog tt is most probably i couldnt resist the com... hehe...

depression

2007-04-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

Your Depression Level: 48%

You seem to have mild depression.
A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment.
If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Are You Depressed?

well... i guess i m depressed... hell... anywayz, tt is propably the reason i like to hang out with the j1s more... cos they are more happy... most of my friends are breaking apart.. crying... today, another went down.. hell... i just cant stand hanging round my j2 friends now.. i mean if i m depressed and they are depressed n we hang out together, we are just going to make each other more depressed rite... n i dun want to be depressed any more... hell... every1 can go DIE!!

why cant i be happy? truely happy?

got my ball replug

2007-04-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

went for uncle jerry trainin yesterday.. was a very funny day... cos my junior invited us to go bowl before the training... and i thought they were playing at yishun... i went there at 4+ and realise they were at csc... funny rite? like the usual mistake i make... anyway bowlled by myself... there was 7 ppl in the lane beside me... was really weird... cos they keep staring at me (cos i brought my balls n shoes)... so they keep staring... bowlled very fast... n my 3rd game was good.. 153... found my line by the end of the second game... spent bout 80+ on bowling... 30+ on the games and training n 50 bucks on the redrilling of the ball... my cousin ball is 14.1 pound! but the coach think i should be able to use it... wahh... broke!.. going for the tpjc games 2mr... another 20+ dollars gone... hell...

not going to care anymore. how ppl think of me. i dont care. the problems of my clique. i dont care. they can go to hell for all they like. it is none of my business anymore.

braces

2007-04-05T17:43:00.000+08:00

i like ppl with braces... i dunno y... i think it is cos they look more human... got flaws.. so benjamin, smile... show of your braces!...
haha... think i going goon goons!

do you know?

2007-04-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

"do you know?" "you know...?"... apparently, i always start talking with this statement/ qns... so the bowllers decided to be funny and start replying "i dun know" before i even talk... damn irritating... i dun know y m i the 1 who always get teased... :(
anyway... i got selected for the pre-u sem! yeah!
bowling 2mr... going to repluck n resurface ball 2mr... plus the training fee... i will be spending bout 80 bucks 2mr! arh, broke!
wanna meet up my og ppl... should i organise a outing with them?

new ball

2007-04-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

... k got new ball... it is a monster bruiser... apparently it work well on medium and medium dry lanes... wee~~~ yeah! but i need to get it resurface and replucked...

2007-04-03T14:18:00.000+08:00

you know what? i think the hammer black widow or the no mercy is real cool... they are bowling balls in case you are wondering... oh and i just found out tt for dry lanes hammer blue vibe is suppose to be good...

bowling ball... headache

2007-04-03T14:06:00.001+08:00

argh!!!! my cousin say he dont have 13 pound ball!!! after i ask him like 3 times! great! but he is saying that he may have a heavy 12 pound ball... hope he has it!!

wooh..

2007-04-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

apparently, my blog is quite popular... more than 100 hit in a week... but i think it is just cos you ppl are bugged by me...
yu heng came back! to visit...
anywayzz, met brenda today... had the best time of my life... ok, not life... week or month is more like it... finally, i can crap... bout everything... ppl, events, thinking, family... all sorts of thing under the sun... this is called relaxing... woo... i feel really good...
oh... realise tt this fri is good fri! so we dont need to go sch... but i still have to lug the bowling ball still... but i must lug it on wed instead of fri... sianz...
another thing for the cjc performance it is $10... so it is cheap... do go!

15 post in a day

2007-04-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

do you know? i broke my record! 14 post in a day... no... 15 counting this... cos of all the quiz i took... lalalalala... this is the last post for today... will keep other stuff for other days...

going to re-plug a 13 pound ball

2007-04-01T20:35:00.000+08:00

yeah! getting a 13 pound ball from my cousin... tt means i have to lug it to sch on fri to let uncle jerry see it... hell... imagine lugging it up and down the bus... n i have to cross the overhead brige... drats... maybe i will walk the long way... will be going for the tpjc game on next sun... so i am fully booked on next weekend...bel, i cant go for the play... but do you wanna go for the cjc 1?
the SLO list coming out soon... cant remember wad day the teacher said... so...
chat with shu wei for like 2 hours... it was fun... teasing him... smarty pants... got into njc... jia you ba, junior!
meeting bren 2mr... happy... going to skip PE again... will be feeling guilty again... but i just dont wanna do PE...
wee~~~~~~ feeling really good... not depressed... not emo... lalalalalala...

2007-04-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

ya... i know... tt's lotz of quiz.... i am bored stiff....

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

really? i dont think my presence is calming at all... make ppl go more crazy n unnerved is more like it... bout the praise and compliment thingy i am not to sure..

2007-04-01T17:37:00.001+08:00

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.
One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

yap! i think tt is true...

2007-04-01T17:36:00.001+08:00

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

You are most compatible with: A and AB

Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

ya... i dont fit in... how great... do you think i am trustwothy n loyal? i think most ppl think i am flighty...

2007-04-01T17:30:00.001+08:00

Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you.
By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go.
While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side.

When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you

When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

What Color Is Your Psyche?

yes yes! agree... not sure bout the healing part though...

2007-04-01T17:28:00.001+08:00

Your Depression Level: 24%

You may be depressed.
While you can be moody, your moods generally fall within the range of normal.
It's up to you to decide if you're depressed... or if you're simply having a bad week.

Are You Depressed?

argh! depression.... hope it is just a bad week for me...

2007-04-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You don't really value loyalty.
In your opinion, friendship should be earned.
If you don't agree with someone, it doesn't matter how close you are.
You'll let them (and everyone else know) exactly what you think.

Honesty:

You value honesty highly.
You're unflinchingly honest, even when it's not easy.
For you, integrity is very important - in yourself and others.
People may not always like what you say, but they know they can trust it.

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

yes! agree... especially bout the loyalty part...

2007-04-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

stablity? doubt it... but the second part is totally me!

2007-04-01T17:20:00.001+08:00

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

er... hard to let go of relationships... dont think it is true...

2007-04-01T16:55:00.001+08:00

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

yeah... i know i am weird... lots of ppl tell me tt... cant be bothered to change.... weird=unique, dont you think so?

2007-04-01T16:49:00.001+08:00

You Are 82% Tortured Genius

You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood.
Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island.

Are You a Tortured Genius?

wow... i am a genius? i know i am tortured....

cjc drama performance

2007-04-01T16:32:00.000+08:00

cjc is having a performance on the 2nd of june...midsummer's night dream.... at 7.30 in their performing arts center...
call/message audrey(my friend) if you are interested! no: 97700072

2007-04-01T16:09:00.000+08:00

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎麽开始飞翔
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
我一个人吃饭旅行(到处)走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

even though this song is bout losing a lover... it sort of applies to me... all alone... cant see....

every1 is breaking

2007-04-01T15:56:00.000+08:00

just read kai chi's blog... didnt know she was so stressed over math... every1 is cracking... gerald, kai chi, karissa, me... we are cracking... life falling apart... and we dont know how to react... how to save ourselves from the tears, the overwhelming sadness... it is like we are drowning and we dont know how to swim... no-one around to help us...
we are all hiding behind a mask... acting like all is well and fine.. but in truth there is too much misery, stress... like loners, all of us... even though we are surrounded by friends... facing the bleak world by ourselves... not able to save ourselves n cant help others...
when will the help come??